I'll mend myself before it gets me...
Thanks for all of your support, guys. The stress of unemployment is getting to me. Disappointments have been amplified. My insecurity is causing problems. I need to go get some kind of job SOON. Someone suggested a way to get some stress release (you need to get laid)...I'm working on that. I'm not willing to go do that with just anyone, but it may be years before I get married again and sorry to my ultra-conservative readers - I love you and respect your views, but I'm not waiting that long.
You attract what you are and I'm a mess. I'll get better, though.
I was going to add this as a comment in response to some of you, but realized I'd written a post:
No dislike of men, just frustration. Some of them need to be kicked out.
I've talked to both guys and everything is fine now.
The new guy's attorney has advised him it's best not to go looking for a girlfriend just yet. I think it's better to wait until his divorce is final, too.
Wyoming and I are talking about visiting again, but not even trying to pretend we're in a relationship...yet...
No, it's not just about sex. We've not even kissed yet. I never will believe that with him because he's a musician with beautiful groupies throwing that at him. I know men find me attractive, but he could easily find a hotter piece that is far less demanding and much more accessible. Your average guy will say or do just about anything long enough to get laid. Your rockstar type will say, "that's too much effort for some sex" and he'll mean it.