I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
I've been remembering how happy I was before, when I wasn't so worried about the future. I was enjoying today. I've been single since 1995, and I have not been miserable for 15 years. I've been pretty darned happy. I kept men around as long as I enjoyed their company. When being with them was no longer fun, I kicked them out. I want to go back to those days.
I can't help thinking if I hadn't been so concerned with where we were headed, maybe things would be different. Maybe if I just relaxed and let things happen instead of trying to make them happen...
I accepted the call from Wyoming. And I'm still talking to the new guy. I don't have any idea if either one will be in my future and I'm actually okay with that.
Yes, I would still like to be in a relationship if I find the right person. That may take a while. Not everyone is going to be okay with me taking off on road trips alone. I've been told I'm different more than once...and it wasn't always a compliment.
P.S. Every time I talk to the new guy, he asks if I've heard from "that guy in Hawaii." Every time I talk to Wyoming, he asks if I'm seeing anybody. I respond, "I'm talking to someone," but I give them each as few details as possible. What the hell? I thought you guys didn't want to hear us talking about other men.