Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I wanna let it go
Time to stop paying attention to his words and start paying attention to his actions. Nothing we have planned has ever happened. I'm supposed to believe that all of this past summer he couldn't find any time to meet, even though I was already on the road traveling and could have easily added a trip to Wyoming? And in the next 365 days he can't find 2 to reserve for me? That's a stretch.
Even if Wyoming didn't know he was lying to me and fully intended on doing those things...even if he really hopes I'll move to Hawaii and we'll be together...there is no precident that makes me believe it actually will happen.
I met a new guy this weekend - and couldn't stop thinking about Wyoming. I can't give him or any other guy a fair chance as long as I'm hung up on a ghost. I told him that until he's ready to take it to the real world, I have to let him go. We can't keep talking like we have.
It's so hard not to call and say, "I didn't mean it. That was Sybil speaking..." I so want to hold on to the hope that I'll be living in Hawaii next year.